Hi group

Not posted much here since joining but this blog is right down my alley. I can identify with the ups and downs, even tho I don't have too many. Thank God. When those times do hit me, I feel I could go either way, lol. Try really hard not to potray this to my family for fear that it will be misunderstood.  I basically allow it to pass. Sometimes, very seldome, do I really express how I feel when I'm down. I rarely say that  I'm not ok' when I'm not. The need to remain independent drives me to being ok in the worlds eyes. It is sad, however not having that person to talk to who understands. Hard for people to understand. May be impossible. Anyway, Spring is springing and the sun will was me new again. I wonder if there were someone in my life whom I could relate to would make a difference. Also wonder if those mood lights that are on the market help. Anyway,I  try to stay busy and to be tired enough to rest. Pass time, you know. Good luck to the blogger. We'll pray for each other.

No issues here with not being myself 24/7, open book, nothing to hide or be ashamed of , and anyone can throw all the labels they want on me, adult enough to speak  my mind be good bad or indifferent and wtih a sound mind and judgement how it's taken by others, with no reactive response, I know me , thus move on enjoy life to the fullest and fear not what others might , will or do say about you as long as you know the truth is all that matters .

Don't know if anyone seen the Oprah Winfrey show when she   did an entire show of the different effects the lack of Vitamin D did to a human being, it was very interesting.  I guess taking the Vitamin D tablets would be better than not having any sunshine at all, but please consult with your doctor first. 

It is a scientific fact that the human body needs sunlight in order to absorb vitamin D.  Lack of sunlight can lead to clinical depression.  On the north slope of Alaska where oil workers are in the dark many months of the year, it is mandatory that they spend time every day in a room with special lights that mimic natural sunlight in order to absorb vitamin D and other nutrients.  I try and get out in the sun at least for a few minutes each day, no matter how cold it is. Yeah, I'm looking for spring time this year for sure. I especially feel concern for people with disabilities that are shut-ins and have a hard time getting out at all.