Not posted much here since joining but this blog is right down my alley. I can identify with the ups and downs, even tho I don't have too many. Thank God. When those times do hit me, I feel I could go either way, lol. Try really hard not to potray this to my family for fear that it will be misunderstood.  I basically allow it to pass. Sometimes, very seldome, do I really express how I feel when I'm down. I rarely say that  I'm not ok' when I'm not. The need to remain independent drives me to being ok in the worlds eyes. It is sad, however not having that person to talk to who understands. Hard for people to understand. May be impossible. Anyway, Spring is springing and the sun will was me new again. I wonder if there were someone in my life whom I could relate to would make a difference. Also wonder if those mood lights that are on the market help. Anyway,I  try to stay busy and to be tired enough to rest. Pass time, you know. Good luck to the blogger. We'll pray for each other.