Who needs friends???

This past Saturday I had company not once but twice, first the ex gf who stopped by to check on me and to see what I've been up to and If I need anything or needed to go anywhere. We talked for about an hour about different stuff, her and her daughter and how they rescued a farrett, New happenings within the fire dept, warrenty issues with her Jeep, more stuff about her daughter and problems she's having with her new place and other general topics. About 10 minutes before she left one of the older members of my fire house stopped by to see what was up. He doesn't pry to much into my life so I usually just tell him everything I can think of and as we talk he tells me the happenings down at the fire house like how there behind in the building of the haunted firehouse, lack of man power for construction, the soon to be chief for next year wanting 4 more drivers approved as pump operators before the end of this year, and he still tells me how there still disrespecting him and going behind his back and doing what they want. He didn't talk all that much as he hardly does but he's good company and I hadn't had any in over a month with the exception of my sister who came out over nite  a weekend ago. As he was leaving he told me that he would be back In a 1/2 hour to pick me up and we would go to the bar and have a few, something  haven't done since before my birthday. As he was leaving he stopped and asked me about having a few drinks and that he would stop by and pick me up  in a half hour.

With the exception of my sister these are the only 2 people that stop and check on me and I've noticed that there visits are getting further and further apart. I'm not one to pick up a phone and just call someone no matter the friend, I only call someone if thet tell me to and on a set time. The ex gf moved out as she said because she needed her space so I don't bother calling her as I don't want to invade her space or come off as being to dependent of her. And my friend who is in his 50's, still living at home with his parents and the way he works I won't call because I never know If I'll wake his parents.

So for awhile now I've been thinking about this and have rolled it across my brain more then once and right now I feel like it's win win or it that a lose lose situation?? See I've been thinking of telling them to not bother, after all she wanted more space since her buying a home to get away from me and my friend who stood me this weekend for what ever reason, I was so looking forward to hitting the bar and having a few.