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My hats off to Rainey and Isisgood, I oue the two of you a BIG Thank You. Tonite while In chat I scared the two of them out of there skin. While In chat I developed one of my bigger PD (Parkinson's Disease) episodes, one that goes down in my book as memorable. While in chat I developed a killer migraine which was just starting to fade away, something that generally comes after a major episode. I 1st noticed my tremour on my left thumb which generally doesn't happen, but this time it did and right away I knew I was in for a big one but little did I realise how BIG this one was going to be. Within a matter of minutes It went from my left thumb to my right hand to my right arm and then to a full torso tremour. Add on top of that slearing of speach and loss of speach almost  simultaneously.

Almost as fast as It came Rainey quickly called my sister and told her what I was going through as Isis tried to snap me out of It and tried to calm me down, little did i know that my sister also called my ex gf to see if she could run down and check on me to see how I was doing. By the time the ex gf got here I was all but out of it and was able to meet her at the door.

I just want to thank you to for sticking by me as I struggled with my hands and my words,  I didn't mean to alarm you and scare you the way I did, I don't always know when or how fast there going to hit.

This past Saturday I had company not once but twice, first the ex gf who stopped by to check on me and to see what I've been up to and If I need anything or needed to go anywhere. We talked for about an hour about different stuff, her and her daughter and how they rescued a farrett, New happenings within the fire dept, warrenty issues with her Jeep, more stuff about her daughter and problems she's having with her new place and other general topics. About 10 minutes before she left one of the older members of my fire house stopped by to see what was up. He doesn't pry to much into my life so I usually just tell him everything I can think of and as we talk he tells me the happenings down at the fire house like how there behind in the building of the haunted firehouse, lack of man power for construction, the soon to be chief for next year wanting 4 more drivers approved as pump operators before the end of this year, and he still tells me how there still disrespecting him and going behind his back and doing what they want. He didn't talk all that much as he hardly does but he's good company and I hadn't had any in over a month with the exception of my sister who came out over nite  a weekend ago. As he was leaving he told me that he would be back In a 1/2 hour to pick me up and we would go to the bar and have a few, something  haven't done since before my birthday. As he was leaving he stopped and asked me about having a few drinks and that he would stop by and pick me up  in a half hour.

With the exception of my sister these are the only 2 people that stop and check on me and I've noticed that there visits are getting further and further apart. I'm not one to pick up a phone and just call someone no matter the friend, I only call someone if thet tell me to and on a set time. The ex gf moved out as she said because she needed her space so I don't bother calling her as I don't want to invade her space or come off as being to dependent of her. And my friend who is in his 50's, still living at home with his parents and the way he works I won't call because I never know If I'll wake his parents.

So for awhile now I've been thinking about this and have rolled it across my brain more then once and right now I feel like it's win win or it that a lose lose situation?? See I've been thinking of telling them to not bother, after all she wanted more space since her buying a home to get away from me and my friend who stood me this weekend for what ever reason, I was so looking forward to hitting the bar and having a few.

A few years back my little borough had  a tragedy that still hurts, one you may have seen or read in the news. A story of a little boy with autism. I'll call him bobby for I can only remember his 1st name and only part of his last name. Bobby was a little boy about 6 or 7 years old who loved bright lights, playgrounds and just loved his pink backpack, carried it with him where ever he went. Like any other kid he was full of energy and liked to go exploring as long as mom or dad had a watchfull eye on him. Bobby from time to time would break free of mom and or dad and go missing but for only a brief moment, except for his last voyage.

It was December 22nd we got the call on our pagers that there was a missing child within the borough, we responded to get our info were giving a picture of Bobby and a description of what he was wearing and his famous back pack. He was wearing his everyday street clothes and a light jacket and slippers, surely not enough to keep him warm for very long as we had a bitter cold snap move in. The temp was below freezing and expected to drop below zero overnight. Within an hr after his disappearance news quickly spread and the number of people searching for Bobby extended to strangers from as far away as Harrisburg which is 2 hrs away to our south, the numbers continued to grow and teams were set up and grids were formed.

Being our small community sits between the Susquhanna river and the Bald Eagle mountain range, the terrain can be very challenging for even a experienced hiker, most areas can only be reached by foot so even atv's are of little use. I recall one searcher had to be rescued as he snapped his ankle on some tree roots and it took a team of 30 or so firefighters and EMT's to bring him out of the woods. As far as I recall he was the only injury during the extensive search of Bobby. We had the State Police helicopter and one other one from another agency both using TMI (Thermal Imaging Camara) which picks up temperature differences to within 1 degree, the flew over the mountain side picking up deer running throughout the woods as well as those searching for Bobby, radio communication was key as the search now included people off the street, people were looking under porches, around playgrounds and back yards as the temperature dopped below 0, Firefighters worked grids with other agencies along the mountain which had a few inches on snow making the search that much more difficult. We worked now stop through out the night, not giving up responding to possible sightings through out the borough and surrounding areas.

News came around dawn he had been found, just near the top of the mountain less then 10 feet from Skyline drive road by a DEP official checking state game lands. I talked to the guy that had found Bobby about a year later while doing a forrestry pack test, he showed us the spot where he had laid down to rest and It wasn't till later that we found out that Bobby wasn't alone. Animals no matter how wild will protect us, be with us and sometimes guild us to safety. With just finding Bobby's body doesn't mean the search is  over, there's looking for clues and gathering evidence, from his starting point to his resting place, with that we found that a deer had laid down with him shielding him and attempting to keep him warm, Bobby was found with his back pack and missing one slipper, rest well Forever Bobby your still in our hearts.

Why do we treat others so bad Is it human nature to do so, Is it something that we are born with? This in ways may reflect on happenings here in the last few weeks so take it however you want, In no way am I pointing fingers at any one person, so take what I say with a grain of salt.

Today I felt helpless, something I don't generally feel, I love to help people no matter how big or small and in what ever way I can. Talking with my sister today she made me cry, something that she doesn't often do. She was telling me as she tells me almost everything that bothers her that she is getting tired of people treating her like the stuff you step on and can't get off very easy. Now I don't know the whole story or what it was that upset her but I do know she takes alot of crap from everyone under her roof. I also know and have seen how her family treats her, her youngest daughter in her 20's does help out around the house, cleaning up after a meal doing dishes as need most times, but she has 2 other 20 somethings living under her roof and they can't even take care of themselves yet alone there own child. My sister has told her theropist about this and a plan is in motion about that.

I have told my sister more then once she needs to end it, to just get it done and over with and call it quits, go to a lawyer and file the papers and get a divorce, things aren't getting any better. I know If I had way of being there I would start a war, I would tell the 2 20 somethings that there is more to life then playing video games, there is a house to be run, things need fixed and people that have feelings, get off your lazy back sides and do something. Just once in my life I would like more then anything to see her happy for a whole week, month or year!! these 2 20 somethings don't offer a finger, they are expected to be asked to do something and only then they have t osit around some more and think things out, like what is there to think about, hello!!!!!

Why do we treat others so bad, even in our own homes, Is it some kind of power trip that makes them feel higher then thou, or is it just plan Ignorance?? Well with the 2 20 somethings in my sisters case I'm leaning towards Ignorance. Grow up 20 somethings, open your eyes and your hearts, look what your doing to the family as well as my sister, she's hurting!!!